grayskyeyes

it's a rainy, gray monday. blech.

i move back to school in less than a month, the very last day of august. i cant believe it.
i'm ready, but at the same time my summer has been so amazing i don't want it to ever end.

( ) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
( ) Boondock Saints
( ) Fight Club
( ) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
(x) Blazing Saddles
( ) Airplane
Total: 5

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i'm feeling rather fat today :(
not sure why, although i pigged out yesterday, what's a few days of bad eating?

i've worked my ASS off so far this summer, going to the gym, i've lost 10 pounds. but sometimes that just doesn't seem good enough.

i suppose if i REALLY wanted to diet i'd lose a ton more weight, but i have trouble doing it.
i just wish these guilty feelings would stoppp

i'm starting to think that i might be in over my head
it's a strange feeling, i'm not sure i wanted to be here, but now that i am, i don't think i can get out of it. i wonder if that's such a bad thing.


but boy does that kid know what he's doing.

some people need to learn how to let go of the past.
obviously its hard, and sometimes i struggle with it too, but seriously. there's so much more to look forward to in the future than there is holding yourself back, wishing you could relive what you thought was so amazing. chances are, if it happened again, it wouldn't be as good.

meredith is going back to fairfield - I CAN'T FUCKING WAIT
i am seriously the happiest person EVER right now. life = amazing




in other news, tonight will probably consist of me hooking up in some way, shape, or form with jobo, seeing as we will both be drunk. let's be honest - i know me, and there's no use pretending something won't happen, when i know it will!